i dunno how to describe this feeling right now..
it somehow gave me away n pull me back..
kinda heartwrenching coz i noe tat some things are within my control yet im afraid to grasp
to fight an internal battle within all over again..

im tinking alot..tinking too much...or rather shelving it
m i the one? shd i be the one? could i be the one?
to give myself the things i wan in my life or isit juz pure illusion tat maybe or perhaps that everything will fall into place in time
will I ever see tat?
wat is wrong.?

2:54 AM; unforgotten.Y

its been long since i had such a long walk..
a long walk in the cold of Beijing
a long walk in the wet of Singapore
the sights of 2 cities
the beauty of the night


it gave me a really warm feeling
it was also with a special company..
this make this all possible

12:30 AM; unforgotten.Y

12:29 AM; unforgotten.Y

I am loving the weather
embracing in a little warmth in the midst of this coldness
enjoying the cool breeze
watching the rain drops
cherishing the rare sunrays among the grey skies
...

the weather set everything juz right
wondering did i bring winter over to Singapore from Beijing
living in pure simplicity
basic needs... anything extra is bonus

staying true to love n life

3:12 AM; unforgotten.Y

12:35 AM; unforgotten.Y

Today is a cold day..
a cold night
my last night in Singapore for 5 days...

well 5 days not too long, not too short
hope it will be enough to freeze my heart...
a heart tat is wild n roaming
a heart tat shd be dead...

i love the feeling of seeing Singapore 1 last time..
i love the feeling of flying away

juz away...

12:23 AM; unforgotten.Y

Life is strange isnt it...
there are times when u hit a reali good streak n everything is going in ur way
then all of a sudden, u juz fall .. n when u fall, things happen to hit u even harder...

dreams turn into nightmares,
reality became a fear, something u dread
something u no longer look forward when u wake up...

i noe running away is not gg to solve the problem
but taking a backseat oso give u a chance to think about it
in a different perspective..

maybe wat u believe is not right in the beginning
but yet u forced ur thoughts
u forced ur emotions to be the way u wan them to be

its hard to be a human being afterall

11:14 AM; unforgotten.Y

why do even dreams have to torture me?
is it that difficult to get my life back on track?
why does everything have to change?

can i juz drop everything n run away?

juz away.. far far away from all these..

1:43 AM; unforgotten.Y