i came across something which have been triggering my mind for a long time
something called expectations
for a moment i tot to be the best in the business
to live up to everyone's light
but in another sense, i fell in the category of unwant, undeserved
well, it cant be helped if the grey area cannot be drawn clearly
or rather it is juz another contradictary thing which we live with everyday
it is no longer the kind that those u think that it will be there when u need it
but rather a kind of rambling that u will stumble upon any moment now
i fail to understand
from the surface of it
i cannot put myself in the shoes of others to think
but instead i created a platform for myself to jump in
however, this platform seems to be higher n higher everytime i try to access to it
is it that i raise the height or the ladder to it become longer?
is it that my legs can no longer carry myself up or isit that the burden on my back is getting heavier?
....
the past few days are full of highs n lows
i guess its like this in life
where it is like a roller coaster ride
especially the moments where u noe ur life is no longer occupied by ur own
u put other's emotions in u
u feel for other
its like tat u can no longer think straight
or rather gave ursef a chance to sink in with the effect
its not harmful but its contagious
i guess it goes well with time when everything is no longer fixed
its only until the moment tat appear in ur face
then maybe light is drawn upon
but to the rest, its juz another stage that we need to get by
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March is here n the busy month has juz started
mounted with school but also personal events.
it should be a joyous n happy month
hope everyone do feel the same