It’s a weird time I noe
Well was at the CC Christmas Party in the afternoon
Doing my part for the society
Saw the lovely children
Saw a glimpse of childhood I dreamt of
But never meant to be mine
It was strange that some things do not turn out the way u wan them to be
Was beaten
Was drained
Hit by a wave of feelings that Ive been experiencing
If u call it hopelessness
I say it is helplessness
Was strong
Being that took a lot from me
Myself to be exact
Pieces of me broken yet patched back
…
I should not make myself so blue
Yet again I can’t help feeling tat
The best thing is tat u noe it when nobody can help u
Though u wish for someone to pull u out
But yet u noe it will never happen
Coz the only person who can do tat is ursef
…
I have hurt
Ive been hurt
Nevertheless,
who is when
When is what
What is where
Where is why
Why is how
Many answers we seek don’t appear
The only thing we have is yet ourselves
People we love
Things we do
Faith we have
…
Im down & out
Burnt
Tired
Drained
Things that I choose to face it mysef
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Christmas never meant much to me
I never had a chance to see it as a lovely day
The only memories I have is obligation
It’s a season to love n give
I gave
I tried hard
I wan to get into the mood
It lost me
Something struck me
I never tot it would be such a big impact in my life
It affects every step I take
Everywhere I turn, I cant let it go
I cant forget it
I wan a new life onwards
Isit tat difficult?
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Brother, let it go
It pains me everytime u r hurt by it
It juz doesn’t occur to me tat Im actuali affected by ur pain
But yes it does
I reali hope u can love again
Place ur trust in anther person
U noe she isn’t worth
So please dun let her do
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I m feeling real bad
Reali reali bad
I dunno y tis feeling come
Its pain
Something I din recognize
For a long time
It shd not change some tings
But yet it may
How I wish I could be held now
Coz I noe I have lost it