Friday, December 30, 2005
this is my favourite songthe lyrics is exactly how i feelThat's When I Love You by AslynWhen u have to look away
When u don't have much to say
That's when I love u
I love u just that way
To here u stumble when u speak
Or see u walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love u endlessly
And when your mad cause u lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love u I love u anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I loveThe more my heart can't get enoughThat's when I love u When I love u No matter whatSo when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That's when I love uI love u
A little more each time
And when u cant quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u I love u
More then u know
And when u forgot that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u ,I love u anyway
So here's my promise made tonigh
tU can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love u When I love u
No matter what
Ohh that's when I love u
when nothing baby, nothing u do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u , when I love u no matter what
Ohhhh no matter what
...
the more i learn the more i love the more my heart cant get enough-this is exactly how i feelim falling deeper n deeperi pray for u to love me the same way i do
4:47 AM; unforgotten.Y
we had our 1st date with
Just like heaveni pray it will be like heaven
we have out 1st movie as a couple with the magic of
Harry Potterwe have our 1st midnight with the sharp
Aeon Fluxwe have our 1st Christmas with the fantasy tale of
Narniatoday we had
King Kong..
it occurs to me that ive watched plenty of movies...
but the best thing is to have someone to cuddle up with
that tenderness n closeness
the warmth in the face, the touch in the hands.
i realise im not alone in the cinema anymore
somebody is sharing that fantasy alongside with me
..
these days have been especially complete with the presence
it have been a while since i can open up to someone
someone i can put my heart to
i nid to let go of certain things
things i hope we can talk it over
but i do feel afraid
afraid of being alone once again
being hurt
being torn
too much tragedies going on
i tin i shd stop muddling in
4:36 AM; unforgotten.Y
Thursday, December 29, 2005
honestly speaking wats with the world today???
ok i was at zouk with my buddy john...
juz a lil push
somebody trying to find trouble... ok never mind....
thn tis real sweaty person is hitting on me the whole nite...
thn his buddy was trying to stand up for him..
n hello, i m 1 head taller than him n much bigger...
cant he understand the fact tat to pick someone of ur own size?
ok the worst is at the coffeeshop tis guy slap a gal ...
oh man...
i remember Prince Hector said in the movie 'Troy"
' Honour the Gods, Love ur woman, Defend ur country'
...
ok the 1st i dun nid to elaborate....
2nd, affairs, cheaters, playboys... when will ppl learn?
3rd, NS complaints... ok....
...
well
im determined tat a gal shd not be hit at all costs....
Eve was born to bring offspring n to provide a caring hand to them
but never she was abused by Adam...
y cant ppl juz stick with tat?
at all costs... ladies.. shd not be hit...
love them for the joy they bring to u
but if ever they do harm to u
juz shoot them
dun humilate them...
..
no im not changing the world...
but the world have changed
juz gonna live with it
...
sigh
5:07 AM; unforgotten.Y
Monday, December 26, 2005
Constantly girl you're on my mind,
and girl I think about you all of the time
and even though words are hard to say,
girl I miss you, never thought I'd feel this way.
[BRIDGE]If you keep on taking, my heart you'll be breaking so why do you do this to me?
You know how I'm feeling it's you I believe in baby can't you see that I need you?
[CHORUS]
You know that it's true.
Every time I see your face
I miss you baby
You know that it's you.
I want to let you know you're driving me crazy.
I'd do anything to help you to see,
I don't think you understand what you're doing to me.
You know that it's true.
Every now and then I want to call you baby.
You know that it's you.
I say a prayer that you'll come back to me lady.
Oh yeah. Life ain't anything alone can't you see you're an angel in my eyes,
everyday you're closer to me.
Nobody's there when I call your name,
and nights are cold girl without your flame.
But if I could girl I'd make you see.
That I'm sorry, and that I need you here with me.
[BRIDGE]
[CHORUS]
Every day reminisce with the past
of a love that we thought would last
. How we used to be when it was you and me.
How did it all disappear so fast.
There are days that I can't forget there are things that I now regret.
I was there for you when you were there for me, and I was thinkin' we were set.
Every night when I'm laying in my bed I hear your voice going round in my head,
think of all the thingsI could have done and all those things I could have said.
I really will make it up to you
I know now what I've got to do,
It took time but now I've realised how much I'm missing you.
[CHORUS]
12:03 AM; unforgotten.Y
Sunday, December 25, 2005
well indeed this year is yet another smashing time for me
Christmas cannot be better than this
a great nite spent with my baby n her sisters
im so happy for her coz she has this group of great ppl behind her supporting her
but they r reali nice pple ....
the Twin.. Chaochia n Tzechia, bubbly Zhenjun, 'famous' xiaowei n her bf, Ashley, Shifa, Fuxiang n his gf , Minghui, Wanwen, Michelle n her Bf, K.....
well great nite at the bbq pit at WaterPlace..
even better after that with a stroll down Cosy Bay...
the best with Narnia to wrap it up n poor baby have to stand in my arms shielding her from the rain
but best of all, a Great Christmas spent
....
i will shield u from the rain, the wind, the storm,for u ... i stand here....2 nites of bbq...
1 at a great house
1 at a great home
family gathering is always lovely...
11:00 PM; unforgotten.Y
Friday, December 23, 2005
i juz wan to get away
how i wish i wasnt born
into this family
y pple dearest to u can turn so vicious?
y ppl whom u love so much
always turn to be the ones who hurt u the most?
its not tat i wan to flare up
its not tat i wan to raise my voice
i never ever raise my voice against ppl
y push me to the limit ?
1:56 AM; unforgotten.Y
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
its amazing how ppl grow
u grow thru pain
happiness, memories
nites like this use to push me to a corner
let me feel tat im not important anymore
let it be lies
let it be a mirage
for everything i mite see may be an evolution
but i do believe
that wat i see now is truth
it slowly evolve into a fantasy
into a miracle u n me are waiting for
...
i gave mysef up 6 mths ago
i tot i will never ever love again
but gng 1 big round
i realise i shd never gave it up
coz it never gave up on me
or shd i say
it never leave at all
i mite have my reservations on some things
but truly everything is here
n its in my grasp
which i will never give upnever....
2:26 AM; unforgotten.Y
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Grey skies will clear itself someday
i hope ur smile do clear my tots
like u always have
...
heaved a sigh of relief
i noe
u r here
still mine
mine alone
..
i do appreciate wat u had done
n ur tried to do
i hope i can still walk down the road on n on
juz with u
1:03 AM; unforgotten.Y
Monday, December 19, 2005
It’s a weird time I noe
Well was at the CC Christmas Party in the afternoon
Doing my part for the society
Saw the lovely children
Saw a glimpse of childhood I dreamt of
But never meant to be mine
It was strange that some things do not turn out the way u wan them to be
Was beaten
Was drained
Hit by a wave of feelings that Ive been experiencing
If u call it hopelessness
I say it is helplessness
Was strong
Being that took a lot from me
Myself to be exact
Pieces of me broken yet patched back
…
I should not make myself so blue
Yet again I can’t help feeling tat
The best thing is tat u noe it when nobody can help u
Though u wish for someone to pull u out
But yet u noe it will never happen
Coz the only person who can do tat is ursef
…
I have hurt
Ive been hurt
Nevertheless,
who is when
When is what
What is where
Where is why
Why is how
Many answers we seek don’t appear
The only thing we have is yet ourselves
People we love
Things we do
Faith we have
…
Im down & out
Burnt
Tired
Drained
Things that I choose to face it mysef
_______________________________________________
Christmas never meant much to me
I never had a chance to see it as a lovely day
The only memories I have is obligation
It’s a season to love n give
I gave
I tried hard
I wan to get into the mood
It lost me
Something struck me
I never tot it would be such a big impact in my life
It affects every step I take
Everywhere I turn, I cant let it go
I cant forget it
I wan a new life onwards
Isit tat difficult?
________________________________________________
Brother, let it go
It pains me everytime u r hurt by it
It juz doesn’t occur to me tat Im actuali affected by ur pain
But yes it does
I reali hope u can love again
Place ur trust in anther person
U noe she isn’t worth
So please dun let her do
___________________________________
I m feeling real bad
Reali reali bad
I dunno y tis feeling come
Its pain
Something I din recognize
For a long time
It shd not change some tings
But yet it may
How I wish I could be held now
Coz I noe I have lost it
4:02 AM; unforgotten.Y
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Sorry to my 2 dear friends
Haze n Zura
sorry... the chilli crab will come soon
...
Sorry to my Brother , John
i wasnt there when u need me
sorry
...
Sorry to my baby..
i cant be there when u r bored
i cant be there when u having sore throat
i cant be there when u need me
...
i reali wish a day can have more than 24 hours.
11:05 PM; unforgotten.Y
Saturday, December 10, 2005
hmm have been a long time since i last blog.... .
coz i juz purchased a PS 2!!!
wonder y i did it....
compulsive buying behaviour
despite my busy schedule
i tin i manage to squeeze out my precious sleeping time
to live in a fantasy world of games
well guys, i do need a breather at times...
to take away the toils of this strain
....
how i wish tat december will be much longer
but clock is ticking away
when January comes,
its juz the beginning of another chapter
another season of hard mugging,projects, new friends
marks an end to an eventful year
shall elaborate more of it on the last day of december
...
so much so
have been leading an unhealthy life lately
miss my friends.. sorry to be so busy lately..
shall promise individual times for all of u
before my lovely friends leave for GIP n Instep
looks like next semester will not be tat eventful
...
that look in my facethat smile u brought to meif only time can turn back to tat momenti wish it could last forever
4:23 AM; unforgotten.Y
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
she said that there is an adjusted r-square value.. but no matter what.. the r-square value is still (ronson) ( raine )... so it doesnt matter the significance of the value coz we will never reject it.
but still the mystery is why is it 11 / 12...
baby u got to figure it out....26th June... i saw her...she took my breath away though it may not seems to have an answerbut actuali it slowly unfold into a fairy tale...till fade..i love it
4:35 AM; unforgotten.Y
Finally Found - Honeyz
I can't believe you're here with me
And now it seems my world's complete
And I never want this moment to end
I close my eyes and still I see
My dreams become reality
And now I know how it feels to be in love
I prayed so many nights that you would come my way
An angel from above to light my darkest day
I think it's time for you to heed these lines'
Cos there's something I want to say
I finally found what I've been looking for
And now you know I'm going to love you more
Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you (It's always been you)
To think that you were always there (always there)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears
Now it's clear that it's always been you
Sometimes you don't expect that friends
Can become lovers in the end
Only God knows what the future will bring
So hold me close and don't let go
'Cos this is love boy, don't you know?
And we're gonna be together for eternity
I prayed so many nights that you would come my way
An angel from above to light my darkest day
A love so strong it can't be wrong
It's with you that I belong
I finally found what I've been looking for (finally found)
And now you know I'm going to love you more
Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you (It's always been you)
To think that you were always there ( you were always there)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears
Now it's clear that it's always been you (you)
(This time) this timeI'm gonna make sure it turns out right
I wanna be your everything and by your side
For the rest of my life (This love)
This love feels the way that love should be
Look in my eyes and realise there's no disguise
'Cos I'm in love with you
I finally found what I've been looking for
And now you know I'm going to love you more
Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you
To think that you were always there (you were always there)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears (Wipe away my tears)
Now it's clear that it's always been you
(It's always been you)
Till fade...
---baby, you're finally found.
4:30 AM; unforgotten.Y
Monday, December 05, 2005
before chinablack....
...
went out with
baby to shop
yup we r a kind... cannot go on specialised shopping trips
end up not getting anything...
..
then of coz met a group of gals... who i tin they are super lovely..
how could i miss such a group of lovely pple?
well
they do turn into a panel of judges
hmm
have to survive an ordeal..
but i noe...
i will pass with flying colours...
rite, baby?
...
its lovely to see the pple around un they r happy for uit means lots to me coz its u
1:33 AM; unforgotten.Y
Sunday, December 04, 2005
NBS FOC BASH 2005
...
yup went to chinablack ( yet again)
well all the pretty n handsome pple
all the booty shaking pple
all the drunk , the ugly and the losers
can u imagine all coming together in DA club
yeah ..
the feeling gets higher after a beer n a housepour
it gets even higher after a few shots .. a few glimpse of the juggies
start seeing pple floating in the air
start seeing the ppl u tot u noe changing to strangers
the bartenders spinning the bottles
start to spin ur mind
R&B , Retro , Top 40s
start moving ur body
hands at the wrong places
bodies closing on the wrong ones
yeah...
its a place to have fun
its oso a place to commit sins
ive seen enough tragedies
determined not to get involved
its still a good time to drink n make merry
with ur lovely friends
of course scorn those fiends out there
trying to pick up gers n ruin their lives
yeah.,
i have my share of healthy fun
2:36 AM; unforgotten.Y
at last it came clear
it seems tat something is gng on
but yet u kept me out of it
i was bothered
though i dun speak
im juz waiting for it to unfold
ya
i wan to share
but i hope it comes as it goes the way round
now im clear but though it pull me aside to tink
will it happen again?
...
came home
missing her
12:55 AM; unforgotten.Y
Friday, December 02, 2005
u gave wat pple cantu show wat is passionu gave me a way to gou show me the light...baby , u always leave me speechless...only smiles
1:05 AM; unforgotten.Y
it seems that human often succumb to stress
isit a lot of it ?
or isit stress growing from nothing but ursef
i guess ppl do have their way to look at it
standing from an outsider's view
i see clearly wat pple couldnt
it makes me wonder
y ppl couldnt juz keep things simple...
maybe tat leads to lesser worries n problems.
..
im stuck
honestly
like a piece of patty btw 2 breads.
cant sway to any side
do i retain my original flavour?
hope chilli sauce can come in n cushion a bit
...
came home freaking tired
freaking bothered
freaking confused
i dun hate anybody
its juz tat im tired of being that somebody
it boils down to me
m i gng to be tat ?
can i ever change anything?
do i ever have tat power?
i shdnt have tat thought
coz its not my style
but reali i cant help to feel tat way.
12:54 AM; unforgotten.Y
Thursday, December 01, 2005
these few nites are great
cold
rainy
but still it feels warm
very lovely weather
with great company
december is coming
lets love this season of giving
3:42 AM; unforgotten.Y