i nid time... seriously...
when can i break ur wall?
i wan to climb over so i can see u
but r u there?
...
will it crumble ?
bringing me down oso?
i dun wan to crumble it
juz wan to open the door , walk in , n lock the door
but i will put in cement n make it stronger...
...
time , memories , dreams
luxuries tat i dun enjoy anymore
...

1:50 AM; unforgotten.Y

a sudden thought
missing all my friends
coz haben seen them for a while...
exams r over.....
reali wanted to go out
n share some things with them
but there is always no time
if not there is always no opportunity
...
hate friends who lie to me
hate friends who dun even care
hate friends who say they will be there
hate friends who dun keep their promises
....
sigh....
missing u

3:22 PM; unforgotten.Y

... i heard this song at the concert...
the moment tat trigger all my emotions....
the very second i wish i can juz hold on to ur hand
juz to hold u so tight...
never i will let go...never...

太阳天或下雨天
人挤人的咖啡店
找一个能想你舒服的角落
看着情人肩靠肩
慢慢转开我视线 yeh yeh~~
有个女孩让我好想念
我的心已经飞到这个城市的另一边
想看着你 我爱的脸
把心里的感情都告诉你
那马路上天天都在塞
而每个人天天在忍耐
没有你的日子很黑白
原来这样就是恋爱
我想要你在我身边
分享生命中的一切
我想要天天说天天说
天天对你说我有多爱你 BABY

3:00 PM; unforgotten.Y

blogging from another computer does feel different
especially when someone u love is here.
if only words can describe this feeling rite now..
i guess the only word i find in my dictionary is love..
..
greAT nite to end off?
or is it the beginning of a new era..
yes jul n dom... u r right..
but well the deception is never complete with the bliss u sent to us
the smile u brought to me
the laughter we heard in the air
certainly more than i can describe now:
...
we r like vanilla n chocolate icecream
with different flavours
but when melted together
it taste better than anything ever happen

12:47 AM; unforgotten.Y

up but falling...
pretty much of a description for me lately
i see ppl holding power to use at their personal interests
i see ppl pressing onto something that they noe it wun succeed
i see ppl pursuing dreams like souless ghosts
i see ppl crashing on their egos only to find they dun have any
i see ppl breaming with confidence to be defeated by their own
...
no no im not upset or anything... neither to be even bothered with them...
i never felt so fulfilled in my life ever... this piece of jigsaw complete my picture
though it have been draining n taking its toll right now...
but i feel good honestly..... for those who noe me... yes... im happy...
perhaps some ppl who dunno me got mistaken abt me... but i never care...
its them who r blind i guess.. i only reserve my attention to those who deserve it....
passion is what i got to offer..
yes u find me snobbish... arrogant.. proud....
stuck with those names as long as i had lived....
but its alrite.... to what u had thought.. u found ursef losing nothing but ursef...
coz at least i noe wat i want in my life...
n i make it a point to b happy
unlike pple who kept dwelling on being unhappy... whining abt life...
ever thought tat its not life tat is making u miserable
but u ursef....
not preaching... not scolding anyone in particular...
exasperated with all these negative thoughts....
yes i have tat tots too....
its a face i chose not to show....
coz i have to be a pillar of strength...
but deep down... who ever see tat scar?
but i take it like a man... coz i noe i can take it
my shoulders are heavy... but they are strong
my footsteps are dragging but they are moving
my vision are blurred now... but i noe they will clear up...
..
deep down i hope u will too

2:54 PM; unforgotten.Y

ashes to ashes
earth to earth
everything remains back in the original place
a sense of helplessness creep inside me
but even then, a will to carry on, to move on ,
i noe its hard to erase sweet memories
i noe its hard to heal from battle scars
its even harder to convince ur guardian angel that everything is alrite
its a joy to noe there is ever one
the one who watch over u relentlessly
though she may worry much but it doesnt warrant to anything else
coz u r about to gain another in me
...
its up to u n me.... only....

2:42 PM; unforgotten.Y

bad day @ work....
1st... my jinx for 3 days.....
2nd... somebody try to steal the fone....
3rd...my shoes kena mud....
but its all ok....
i still move on....
tired... but still move on...
coz ...
there is a reason to.....

11:28 PM; unforgotten.Y

sunday is family day.....
to many.. yes...
to me... i dun have the luxury of gng out with parents...
neither i have the chance to sit together n eat..
but today i have tat...
though its not my family.. but i regard them as mine...
my very own....
..
i feel love ....
warmth
everything tat have been missing for a long long time in my life....
or perhaps... not even have a chance to experience....
but yes .. its a wonderful day... yes it is.....
....
i enjoyed watching u.. juz watching u.....
hmm.. so how long have u been watching me?
since the day i set my eyes on u....
...
i juz hope that u will be the 1st person when i wake up every morning...
the last person i will see when i go to bed at nite....
easy lah... paste ur photo in front of u ...
no i wan to paste it inside my eyelids...
so everytime i close my eyes.. i will see u....

12:08 AM; unforgotten.Y

12:59 AM; unforgotten.Y

the magic stays on n on....
love do change a man....
a man who gave his all to his family, friends, himself
a man who believe in himself
a man who kept secrets with himself
a man who dun care at all
...
wat it take is juz
a lady to give him courage to carry on
a lady to comfort him with words and love
a lady to shine for him
a lady to risk for him
...
yes this is the power of love...
it rekindles my flame to love again
it motivates me to work harder
to go further..to fall deeper...
i stay positive on tis path to fend off all ur worries
i stay true to u for it should take aways ur memories
for u, im real...

1:32 PM; unforgotten.Y

the evening unfolds itself into another enchanting time for me
...
i held ur hands in mine..
i keep u warm when it is freezing..
i gave u my shoulder when u need to lean on...
i hold u when u are gng to fall
...
u look into my eyes
u gave me a smile when u see me
u hold my arm when u r afraid
u melt my heart
...
i wish this moment will pause forever
Baby.. its juz u n me..

2:34 AM; unforgotten.Y

i tin im the most fussy customer on earth.....
been looking around fo a laptop... but want a small one, yet high performance..
the more i see , the more indecisive i got
wanted a small one, yet attracted to the bigger ones coz of lcd screens,
wanted a high performance , yet see another of higher performance...
price is not a problem, but juz cant be satisfied with wat u chose in the end...
affection after behaviour... or cognitive after affection...
well, human beings are like tat too rite??
to tink they are the best in choosing but did they ever wonder wat is the best for them?
to think they had made the best choice but in the end its not their own
to had made a choice but yet to pass it over coz they tot the other was better
my solution : make a choice.. make it sticks...
...
but 1st back to my laptop decision....
...
had a wonderful time at the movies...
erm.. nowadays watching movies are different affair...
always believe tat the company is more impt...
now i tell u
yes its true....
...
yes this exams did change my life....
after this .... its a series of events
1st, WORK.....
the administration dept
accounts... n its time to do some selling....
then... PA...
UBIN Cycling n Camp coming.. ppl interested... give me a call.. need support....
of coz some indulgence in myself before another gruelling semester starts..
hope to find some refuge...
...
this sem haben been better without some people .....
John : Brother,glad to have u back in my life.. was reali upset without ur presence.. but we grew more deeply in touch with each other...
Fiona: yes.. u have always been there.. giving support n so much more...
Loire & Chariote : knowing u people are the most electifying experience i ever have...
Dom, Raine, Julyn : Yes the BPC.... we learnt n get thru thick n thin...
Jocelyn : thanks... u have been the 1 true gal... God love u himself.....
Judy: my tall, 1st 3 mth class rep... yes.. our talks.. never forget tat...
Haze n Zura : my Sweet sisters.... crabbing never come true without u .....
Joey: my Pretty SP.... yep.. rollerblading.. n ur support during tat difficult time....
Beverly: Special Recommendation to this gal... never failed to make me laugh... never.... yep all the listening to my whinings....gave me strength to carry on
....
the list goes on n on... but thank you... i learnt more about u guys n life itself...
im happy with what i have n i cherish every single word u said to me.... Thank You......

2:07 AM; unforgotten.Y

finally.... the struggle is over.....
sleep only for 2 hours .... can say im tired .....
killed the RM paper... though not to my expectation but killed it, bombed it,
finally i breathe the air of FREEDOM!!!
....
fiona lost her wallet!!!
but in the end, some kind soul returned to the SAO...
ok there are still honest souls in this world
....
is this a dream?
pinch ursef la
erm.. i prefer the other method

6:48 PM; unforgotten.Y

Yes.. RM, my final enemy.... oso the worst of all...
no matter how many analysis u can do..
u can regress ur assault, rely on ur men
the end will be the same...
RM u r good as dead.....
...
smooth day
everything seems to flow when u wan them to
this feeling is unbelievable
i breathe life again
positive positive positive
now i have a clearer picture to move on
the future is juz right in front of me to grab
...
everything about you is juz so wonderful
no... im not living in a dream
yes tis is true
it is true because of you

1:48 AM; unforgotten.Y

House by the lake
Flowers in the garden
Scent and peace
and of course the beautiful you....
...
a beautiful picture in my dreams
for countless nights, i have that
7th Heaven that u said
Paradise i wan to be in
live in this dream
whether we want or not
"I do, do you?"
"Yes"
.
Girl I will never find no one that compares to you

3:20 AM; unforgotten.Y

Regression Analysis
Linear association between a dependent and an independent variable
Y intercept is the point which a regression line intersects the Y-axis
...
i tin i found my Y intercept

coz the R-square value which is the coefficient of determination is 11/12 = 0.917

which means the 91.7% of the variation in me can be explained by associating the Y-intercept

and the rest of 8.3% will come to light soon...
but even so, we can draw a conclusion that the 2 variables are HIGHLY related

3:01 AM; unforgotten.Y

a night to remember....
love the days
love the nights
love every moments im breathing now
i feel warmth
i feel joy
i feel my faith
i feel so much...
thanks, im alive
...
its been wonderful
to be surviving among sadness
surrounded by uncertainty
ive come thru
i see the light
draw upon myself
i noe wat i wan
i go for wat i believe
greatest thing ever happen to me
...
light it up
move on
darkness will disperse
prince will always be prince
but definitely, light will come again
dwell not
focus on
simple yet beautiful
my message to u

3:08 AM; unforgotten.Y

me n my heinken as usual... Brandy, Jim Beam, Wedges... n candle light!

a great nite out with my buddy, john again...
this time out.. chilling out...
beer n some hard liquor all in the good favour...
n the potato wedges are so much til cant finish...
talk about love, things, people.... wonder y i click so well with my johnny boy
yes, brother u r correct, we are not the average good friends, we are emotionally attached to each other
hey ppl, dun get mistaken, but we reali feel for each other and look out for each other...
brotherhood alone cannot describe it
its definitely more than tat, definitely...
...
nite out with a movie"Just like Heaven"
with someone special
person who gave me strength to move on
one who enchant me with a smile
this is unexpected, fulfilling yet beautiful
...
miracles happen
its up to u to believe it anot...
i do
..

3:39 AM; unforgotten.Y

Great supper out with my brother, john
ya.. talk about lotsa of stuff..
thanks for the advice u gave me...
appreciate it man....
...
focus focus focus
love supper nites with my brother
hope u listen to me too...
we n our 'dates'

1:16 AM; unforgotten.Y

such a lovely song in a beautiful night...
triggers lots of thoughts..
really...

MICHAEL BUBLE - The Way You Look Tonight
Some day, when I'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow
just thinking of you
And the way you look tonight.
You're lovely, with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.
With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fears apart
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
Touches my foolish heart.
Yes you're lovely, never, ever change
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it?
'Cause I love youJ
ust the way you look tonight.
With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fears apart
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
Touches my foolish heart.
Yes you're lovely, never, ever change
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it?
'Cause I love youJust the way you look tonight.
Just the way you look tonight.
Darling
Just the way you look tonight.

1:44 AM; unforgotten.Y

feeling high!!!
have been like tis a few nights....
feeling tired..
but a feeling to carry on...
if life can be that high without pain....
..
but i worry
will it be like a fireworks show..
beautiful but shortlived....
...
seeking for answers...

1:21 AM; unforgotten.Y

Man.... almost late for exams today.. was running from North Spine to Nanyang Audit.... got seated right before the paper started..

"Leading Small Group Effectively"

'Why do we Study Group?"

man, i almost gave up n hand in a blank piece of paper... but well.. my usual is to crap it out...
even trying to crap cant get the question right....
how about tat man....
felt i had hell of an argument on every aspect of the paper, on leadership and on being in a group.
Throw out all i learnt in BM212 and Histoy...
felt i juz done a sec 4 histoy paper coz all i mention is the wonderful deeds tat great Leaders had done...
the funniest part ' describe how does group alter self concept and social identity"
this is my favourite part... pratically throw out all the theories on I-self n Me-self... made a big hoo haa over the social identity of a famous doctor....
...
well well well.... next up RM... lovely subject... 1 week from now...
shit, im getting high again.. juz like ytd.. but today at least i had myself down to control...
haha... had a nap.. now feeling ok le.... all my emotions outburst is under control..
...
nono.. not feeling sad... another kind of feeling.... cant say happy... but cant say excitement....
but positive... but it feels strange though... hmm
...
anything can happen... juz let it happen... cant stop it....take it as it come....yeah!

7:05 PM; unforgotten.Y

Whenever i feel low, i listen to this song... it spur me on...
Take me higher...
hope tis bring u up
.....


Higher
By Creed

When dreaming I'm guided through another world
Time and time again
At sunrise I fight to stay asleep
'Cause I don't want to leave the comfort of this place
'Cause there's a hunger, a longing to escape
From the life I live when I'm awake

So let's go there
Let's make our escape
Come on, let's go there
Let's ask can we stay

Can you take me higher
To the place where blind men see
Can you take me higher
To the place with golden streets

Although I would like our world to change
It helps me to appreciate
Those nights and those dreams
But, my friend, I'd sacrifice all those nights
If I could make the Earth and my dreams the same
The only difference is
To let love replace all our hate

So let's go there
Let's make our escape
Come on, let's go there
Let's ask can we stay

Can you take me higher
To the place where blind men see
Can you take me higher
To the place with golden streets

So let's go there
Let's make our escape
Come on, let's go there
Let's ask can we stay

Up high I feel like I'm alive for the very first time
Set up high I'm strong enough to take these dreams
And make them mine
Set up high I'm strong enough to take these dreams
And make them mine

Can you take me higher
To the place where blind men see
Can you take me higher
To the place with golden streets
Can you take me higher
To a place where blind men see
Can you take me higher
To the place with golden streets
...
All the Best to Exams

11:59 AM; unforgotten.Y

a smile i bring worth a thousand i made
...
i seek happiness in little things i do nowadays
...
roof over my head
enough money to spend
a woman who support me
...
wat else u ask for

10:27 PM; unforgotten.Y

although i only finished 2 papers
but the more i am here, the higher i get

'the endorphines without the bad side effects'

my lovely friend put it tat way
true la.... better than drinking alcohol to get to tat stage...
hwo come ah
so jumpy
but anyway.. its better than mugging

4:11 PM; unforgotten.Y

To some people, the door is close
To some people, the door is open
however, it seems to have an invisible wall
people thought they cant enter
actually the wall is in their heart

2:36 PM; unforgotten.Y

a long lost feeling came back to me
a feeling i tried to hide
or isit i chose not to face it
afraid to lose it or afraid to expand it
time & time again i numb myself
thinking i will not be able to be affected
i guess maybe im wrong
....
maybe im anticipating
maybe im expecting
hate tat it occur to me so soon
hate tat it might be 1 empty dream again
i bear no more hope
....
will it be true
will it be there
will it last
i ask myself
cant answer
happy or fear
time will tell

10:09 PM; unforgotten.Y

wanted to blog but server down at 5 am in the morning
juz spent 2 solid hours at mac studying
its better than spending many needless hours staring at the textbook blankly
felt good aftere finishing all the concepts
but now is the time to apply wat i noe
...
din sleep much..
dunno y
anyway cant sleep
juz make breakfast for my family
eggs, ham, hotdogs, baked beans
may be little effort
but shows how much i do love them
...
missing someone..
shd block out tat feeling

12:12 PM; unforgotten.Y

People who u thought they had left
they only remain in 1 corner in your train
however no matter how tough it is
they never throw away the ticket stubs
they held it close to their hearts
knowing there might be a chance that they may alight
but even then, they can still return to your train
never let them out
not to confine
but to keep in mind they are always there

2:00 AM; unforgotten.Y

A friend say this to me...
how true it is...

'human beings cannot grow w/o understanding hardsps people cannot become great w/o struggling those who are nt trained and tempered by difficUlty will be lacking in foritude in ts sense, those who posses firm resolve are strong'

'the moment u resolve to be victorious, every nerve and fiber in your being will immediately orient itself towards success'


'is only thru hardsps and struggles then we can expand our lives n succeed'

11:42 PM; unforgotten.Y

Pardon me if i speak too warlike

i used to think that everything in life is like a war
its an ongoing battle with yourself
the greatest fear is none other than yourself
u dun fear of failure
u fear of letting yourself down
right now, im going on a crusade.
a crusade against Exams
after that is Business
however right in my heart i know deep down,
im going on a long campaign for my life ahead
all of these are just part of life i have to go through
dun ask for anything
i tin i no longer have a right to ask
if this is determined to be my path
so be it
i dun resign to fate
but i give my faith to it
have that in mind
in this i seek strength in myself
belief , confidence
i dun hear love stories not because i dun believe in them
its just that its not the right time to hear them
sorry to the people i might had kept silent about your problems
i juz dun wish to have any part of me in ur decision
sorry to people that i might had turn cold to
its not because i dun cherish u
its juz tat maybe im juz looking for a break in life
i cant smile to everyone all the time
nor i can refrain myself from u
i bounced back from my problems
i hope all of u will
to people i might had lost
its not i wan to
its juz circumstances restrict me to a choice
to those who might read this
i hope u understand
...
Nothing will stop me...
Nothing...

11:46 PM; unforgotten.Y

7:13 PM; unforgotten.Y

In face of battle,
you show no mercy
or u keep a lifeline

Life is like a battle
u keep it going
or u let it bother u

Black n White
which colour u choose

Grey area we all seek
is there ever 1

12:50 PM; unforgotten.Y

heard this song over the radio
"Put your head on my shoulder"
the jazz version though..
juz feel so touched suddenly...
...
lovely thoughts

10:38 PM; unforgotten.Y

Put Your Head On My Shoulder
Paul Anka

Put your head on my shoulder
Hold me in your arms, baby
Squeeze me oh so tight
Show me that you love me too
Put your lips next to mine, dear
Won't you kiss me once, baby
Just a kiss goodnight, may be
You and I will fall in love
People say that love's a game
A game you just can't win
If there's a way I'll find it some day
And then this fool with rush in
Put your head on my shoulder
Whisper in my ear, baby
Words I want to hear
Tell me, tell me that you love me too.
Put your head on my shoulder
Whisper in my ear, baby
Words I want to hear, baby
Put your head on my shoulder

10:33 PM; unforgotten.Y

hey girl,
the road for life is not just towards the end of it, in between , u meet pple, see things, have ups n downs... if life is simple enough to be understood, it should be kept simple. well. our paths crisscross each other, thats why we met, its the work of God for this to happen, i believe in friends for life, n never in my heart, there was a second of doubt about it. Right now, u need trust n we have always been there to give u tat faith. u need courage, we brave through all things for u. u need love, in our hearts, we reserve the passion for you. If words can describe our feelings, we would not use action, if our action fail, we will not have loved. Right inside u, ur greatest fear is none but ursef, only the day u can overcome it, u can succeed. i believe the moment u won the gold medal like the many u had won, is 1 of the best things to remember. u have been TAT strong.. no matter in which arena u r in. Never give up, i believe its a thousandth time u had heard , but draw that strength from all of us. its till the end of days , only hope may be given up , but never ursef. Step up n stand bravely in front of all fears, u realise u r never weak.

8:15 PM; unforgotten.Y

7:55 PM; unforgotten.Y